Letting Go

It's amazing when you let go of a piece of your past, how the weight is lifted off your chest and suddenly you feel so free and relieved.
I thought I had gotten to the point where I "let go" of every guy in my life that I was once in love with or desiring. Until, JD came back into my life.
I didn't realize how much I wanted to be with him until he reappeared. We had met back in 2006 and he literally took my breath away. We started having a friendship and then we started going out more frequently. Then, in 2008, when I left for Argentina, we just quit talking. I don't know why, it just ended aprubtly. Then, thanks to a social networking site, he reappeared and we picked up where we left off. Only I found myself, head over heels in love with him. I see a pattern with me, do you??? We saw each other only 3 times when I realized that I was wasting my heart on him. So plain and simple, I told him, "I may not be the most beautiful, or the sexiest, nor do I have the perfect body. I might not be your choice, but I am a great choice. I don't pretend to be someone I'm not, because I'm good at being me. I might not be proud of some of the things I've done in the past, but I'm proud of who I am today. Take me as I am or watch me as I go."
Needless to say, he has watched me as I went. And you know something, readers? I am relieved. I am carefree. I am happy.
I'm done waisting my time with men who don't want to be with me.
Out there is the man that God has created for me and I need to be ready and willing when he comes into my life.
Although I'm tired of tears and sitting on the sidelines, it's time to buck up, dry the tears and play the game. Not the game of relationships, marriage, babies, that'll come. I'm playing the game of LIFE. I'm going to enjoy each person I meet, I am going to enjoy each conflict I face. I'm going to enjoy the place where God has me. Life is TOO short to waste my heart on someone who doesn't deserve to have it.
It feels good when you admit, you have LET GO! :)

New Year...New You...Different Me

It's that time! A new year and each year, I am one of those lame people who makes a New Years Resolution and then in the last month of the year, I am trying to loose 45 pounds, go to Italy, win an Oscar and find my love. (Ok, so MAYBE I set my resolutions TOO high!) :) So this year, instead of giving myself resolutions, I just decided that I am going to face this year with a smile on my face and take it as it comes!
Yes, I have started eating healthier and exercising. I have cut all ties with any boy that I may have REMOTELY had ANY heart palpations for and I have committed myself to do the best with my life in the situations it has!!
I'm ready for 2011!!! Bring it!!! :)